When you make a friendship that makes you the happiest person on the earth, when you say to them where have you been my whole life?, when you have just met them and already you become inseparable, when hanging out with them makes you feel like your loved and that someone actually cares about you, when you hang out day after day after day and it never gets old, when they ask for your help you drop what ever your doing to move on to help them, They do the same for you but… You feel like your over bearing on them, because you love being with them so much that you just cant help but to try to spend every moment you can with them, Then along comes someone else and you notice they stop paying attention to you, they stop inviting you places, they don’t talk to you as much, it hurts to see it. Then you realize that there’s nothing you can really do, because if you try to spend more time the relationship starts to become awkward, but hey its alright, i mean i only helped you out on everything that i can and anything that you will ever need, you know you can count on me and ill be there for you no matter what, and what have they done for you ? nothing, nothing at all and they are getting all the attention and preference from you, call me jealous but i cling to the people that make me happy, the people that make me feel loved, because feeling loved is the best feeling in the world, being alone is the worst and i hate that that’s why i cling to people, especially the ones that im close to, or that i think at least, Now after this you got me thinking if our friendship is a charade, if you simply deal with me because the benefits are too good to give up, but im stupid, i don’t care even if this is true and even if you fake our friendship its ok, even if the feelings you express are fake to they still make me feel loved, and that’s all people really want, to be loved, even if its not genuine we will cling to it. So this goes out to you, you will probably never read this, but the true test of our friendship will come up, and i hope that you don’t fail it because i don’t know what i would do without you. 

About a friend that i have had for a while now, we known each other for a few years but we never talked we just knew who each other was, it wasnt until this year that we really clicked and i keep asking myself why i made the mistake of not talking to them sooner, why they didn’t come into your life sooner. But i still love my friend no matter what the truth be.

unknown-one:

I wouldn’t be surprised if you were to leave me next.

I’d be devastated. Broken. Shattered. Incomplete. Gone.

unknown-one:

I hate the feeling of insecurity. 

Sometimes I feel that you get tired of me being around. Am I too clingy? I’m just afraid that you will lose feelings for me and start liking someone else. It happens. I hate thinking and feeling this way because I know you wouldn’t do it. However, something in the back of my mind tells me shit happens. 

unknown-one:

I hate the feeling of insecurity. 

Sometimes I feel that you get tired of me being around. Am I too clingy? I’m just afraid that you will lose feelings for me and start liking someone else. It happens. I hate thinking and feeling this way because I know you wouldn’t do it. However, something in the back of my mind tells me shit happens.